Nuthouse stay affecting HAED buying styles

Funny, but I scavenged from every credit card I had to get a few purchases from the HAED sale and my picks ended up being quite interesting from a psychiatric point of view.

Of course, there was the obligatory Jasmine Becket-Griffiths, including The World, which obviously is something I'm TERRIFIED of right now and can't bear to look at because it is filled with raging seas and terrifying monsters:

The Mini version of Dress of Storms, an obvious commentary on my emotional state:

Faces of Faery 71...hiding from the world:

By The Seaside, where I spent a lot of my "incarceration" time imagining I was, gathering shells:

And Absinthe Goggles, which is what I felt like I was looking through the entire time. Absinthe doesn't have the same effect on me like it does most people, it takes a lot of it to get me drunk (unlike other alcohols), it just kind of clouds my brain, like those damn meds were doing:

I also got the Supersized Max Color version of Alternate Reality by Josephine Wall. I've had the regular version for years but, even though I loved the pattern, I always disliked it's lack of detail and this version solves that problem. Right now, I'm living on the good side of that mirror, but eventually, I'm going to have to go back to work into the cold cruel "real world", so this one REALLY hits home. This might actually be the first SS/MC project I start and it might be soon if I can find some fabric on sale:

While I was at it, I picked up her Lilac Dreams as well because I love purple and, if I ever do get to build my new house, this will look great in my bedroom (and, from the perspective of all the other choices, I did spend a lot of time in the nuthouse sleeping and dreaming of my happy places anyway):

On the darker side, I picked up John Shannon's Bitter Half. I've got to re-learn to hide that bitter half of myself from the world again since I seem to have lost an entire lifetime of Asper social training, so I thought this one was really appropriate. The left is how I am most times on the inside, the right is how I must appear to the world. I'm just not sure that I can remember how to pull it off anymore so I might look a bit schitzo to people for a while unless I keep myself as closed off as possible (which is my plan).

I also got my first fractal, Fairydust by Elizabeth Welker. I love this design because it's fairydust and supposed to be beautiful and happy (which it is), but it's all fractured and feels more sad than happy to me...fractured pieces of light amidst a sea of blackness, plus, there is the purple factor:

And last, but certainly not least, Lavender Grey by Sheena Pike. This IS me right now in every sense, from the expression to the accents to the colors. Anyone have the key that will unlock my head and get me back to normal? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?