I Stitched!

I took me a while (and quite a few Xanax to get my hands to quit shaking enough to work), but I finally started stitching again and I've barely stopped since! I left off on Alice and the B's:
And, although some of the work was done before I went "inside", here's where Cindy is now:
Right now, I'm still not ready to put them down and work on something else...I need the familiarity right now. I'm not stitching very fast, but I'm also not having any focus issues, which surprises me.

Tomorrow, I have to go back to work. It's why I'm stopping stitching earlier than normal because the fear is getting too great and my hands are shaking too bad again to stitch effectively. I can't thank you guys enough for all your support! It never ceases to amaze me how great all you guys are!

Unfortunately, I doubt I can say the same thing for my co-workers and I figure there will be a lot of judgement on me tomorrow. Normally, I could care less what those people think of me so I'm not sure why I care now, it's probably because I'm just too open and vulnerable to almost every little thing. To be honest, I'm not sure how many people at work actually know what happened to me and, the ones that do know, don't know the whole story. Once my Asper mouth gets running though, I probably won't be able to shut up about it.

I managed to go into work Saturday when no one was there and got somewhat caught up. Once I stepped out of the house, I practically ran to the car because my neighbors were all out roaming around. I tried to go to Sonic and get a soda, but I couldn't even go through the drive thru, so I failed that mission, but once I got to the lab, it was easy to get in the building because it's across the street from a busy hospital and people were EVERYWHERE. When I was inside, it was easy to get to my office, but I couldn't close the door to my office. That is going to be a problem. I had planned on spending my "real" work week locked in my office. I can't do that if I can't close the door. I am literally going to be a fishbowl. But then again, maybe it's just a people thing...I seem to run like a chicken when I see people, so maybe, come tomorrow, I'll be locking that door the moment I step through it. Here's hoping! And here's hoping that everyone will be terrified of the "crazy" and leave me alone! Stay tuned.


Stitching Angel said…
Well done on picking up a needle again. I wish you well when you go back to work, hope it's not as bad as you think it will be.
Happy stitching!!!
Justine said…
Cindy looks great - glad to see you have managed some stitching! I hope your co-workers will be more understanding. I'll be thinking of you on Monday.
Mii Stitch said…
You've made great progress! I'm so glad you were able to stitch.
Don't worry about work, I'm sure your colleague will understand. It was a good idea to go there beforehand to familiarise again with your working surroundings. Fingers crossed it goes well for you!
So happy that you were able to stitch again and even more happy that you enjoyed it! I am sure you won't see this until you are home today but I hope you have a great day at work today!
Linda said…
Great progress Keiley. I'm so happy you were able to stitch again. Try and have a good day at work.

Awesome work on the stitching!
Fantastic idea to go to work at the weekend to try it out. Could you switch to evening shifts permanently? Be great if you could.
Maybe you can get one sympathetic co-worker on board and use them to deflect all the others?
Anyway you're probably there now while I type this so hope it's going well.
Faith... said…
Glad you were able to start stitching again, it is a good step in the right direction. It was probably a smart idea to go in on Saturday so you could get into the place alone and it won't be so over whelming on your first day back. Speaking of first days back - I hope today went smoothly for you and you didn't pay attention to the gossipers.
Astrids dragon said…
Yay for stitching, great progress!
Now that it's Friday, I hope you had a good work week and things are better for you.
I'm glad you got to stitch! I hope going back to work for you worked out okay, but what ever happens, at least you have your stitchy-happy place to seek refuge in in the evenings.
Bethan said…
I'm glad you got some stitching done. And I really hope your first day back went well x
Vickie said…
Great work on the stitching...i am behind but I am here for you if you need a friend! Whatever happened...you can face it and be strong!