Keebles World

Sorry guys! We were out of town last week and I haven't had time to do a post. We went to Pennsylvania for a rather late memorial service for my Grandmother (which turned out to be a total bust, but I'll go into detail later), but it was also a very short road trip for my Sister and I. We had stops at Transylvania University in Lexington, Trans Allegheny Lunatic Asylum, Centralia, Hershey, Harrisburg, Burkittsville, Shepherdstown, and Nashville before we made it home, so it was crazy, but, as per usual, I have pictures! I just have to edit them. On the personal front, right before we left for the trip I found out that my therapist is not moving to another facility, but is staying at the "bad" place, so I have to decide if I want to continue seeing her or not. I can't even go to my pulmonologist who is in the same building right now, so I don't know what to do. I told her it would have to wait until after our trip, but that's done and I'm still ...

I didn't get a single stitch done, but I did make it through a work week (somehow). I did spend most of the week locked in my office. The stuttering was horrible until almost the end of the week and I still can't really answer the phone properly. I am going across the street to the hospital, but I bolt in and out faster than Speedy Gonzales on speed. At least I'm saving a ton of money not stopping at Starbucks to get tea or energy drinks in the morning! My fears about my work colleagues was justified. Everyone was either over-compensating or ignoring me completely. I really didn't care as much as I thought I would. I bothers me more that the people who actually knew I was in the loony bin thought I was there because I'm a nutter and that they didn't know the truth. A lot of people just thought I was off sick due to my mental issues, but didn't know about the hospital stay. Those people don't bother me as much and I'm not sure why. By the ...

I took me a while (and quite a few Xanax to get my hands to quit shaking enough to work), but I finally started stitching again and I've barely stopped since! I left off on Alice and the B's: And, although some of the work was done before I went "inside", here's where Cindy is now: Right now, I'm still not ready to put them down and work on something else...I need the familiarity right now. I'm not stitching very fast, but I'm also not having any focus issues, which surprises me. Tomorrow, I have to go back to work. It's why I'm stopping stitching earlier than normal because the fear is getting too great and my hands are shaking too bad again to stitch effectively. I can't thank you guys enough for all your support! It never ceases to amaze me how great all you guys are! Unfortunately, I doubt I can say the same thing for my co-workers and I figure there will be a lot of judgement on me tomorrow. Normally, I could care less wh...

Funny, but I scavenged from every credit card I had to get a few purchases from the HAED sale and my picks ended up being quite interesting from a psychiatric point of view. Of course, there was the obligatory Jasmine Becket-Griffiths, including The World, which obviously is something I'm TERRIFIED of right now and can't bear to look at because it is filled with raging seas and terrifying monsters: The Mini version of Dress of Storms, an obvious commentary on my emotional state: Faces of Faery 71...hiding from the world: By The Seaside, where I spent a lot of my "incarceration" time imagining I was, gathering shells: And Absinthe Goggles, which is what I felt like I was looking through the entire time. Absinthe doesn't have the same effect on me like it does most people, it takes a lot of it to get me drunk (unlike other alcohols), it just kind of clouds my brain, like those damn meds were doing: I also got the Supersized Max Color version of Alterna...

First of all, thank EVERYONE for your support! I am so grateful to have such good bloggie friends!! Can't necessarily say the same thing about the friends in my real world other than just a couple, but still! I am going to respond to everyone's emails and comments...just please be patient with me right now. I still haven't gone back to work yet. I can't leave the house barely at all and, if I do, not for very long and NEVER alone. Yesterday was the first day I was able to take a shower without someone else in the house, but I couldn't keep the door closed, so the floor got soaked. The nightmares are getting worse too. I talked to the therapist at the hospital (to get my work excuse extended) and she suggested maybe I should come back to the hospital. I was still laughing when I hung up on her! Basically, I'm extremely terrified of small places like bathrooms and showers, but I can't leave my tiny 1150 sq ft trailer because I'm terrified of th...

In case anyone was wondering where I've been for the past few days, I've been locked up in the nuthouse...yeah, no joke. I've always tried to tell the Asper side of things on my blog as much as I can, not just to help myself, but maybe help others out there who know people like me or who are like me...it ain't all cross stitch and Disney around here, as most of you know. You guys know that my meds have been screwed up lately. I mentioned that my shrink was leaving and I would be stuck with APNs, but at least I still had my therapist. The entire office moved to another building, but the problem was, they merged the Behavioral Health Clinic in with the Internal Medicine Residency Clinic, meaning us crazies were in with normals. That was problem enough and made it EXTREMELY difficult for me to even go over there at all, even though they had moved into the old Cancer Center where my Sister worked for years. You'd think I'd be comfortable there because I've...