We didn't have Needle Club this week because we had a massive storm yesterday (which thankfully wasn't a tornado and I only ended up with a cracked outer front window, but still had 80mph winds that lasted well over 20 minutes). My logic was that I didn't want to be around town after dark since most areas of my side of town were still without power and there were a lot of downed trees still the road. But, if I'm completely honest, I just didn't feel like it. I had a headache, I had made three trips home and back already throughout the day (to get the pups during the storm, to take the pups back after the storm, and to check on them since the power was out), my stitching mojo has waned of late, but worst of all, I feel AWFUL lately! This diet is really getting horrible. I feel worse now and have more headaches than I ever did at my highest weight. My knee hurts more now than ever as well. I have no energy and yet I still can't sleep. I'm not a happy camper on a good day, but my happiness scale has been in the negatives for weeks. Why is this? Is it the Metformin he's put me on (because apparently, although my sugar is "normal", my insulin resistance is "high", whatever that means) or is it because I'm not exercising (because I A) don't want to and B) see knee comment above)? I don't know, but either I've got to hit the goal weight to switch to the other plan soon, or I've just got to give this mess up. How a person can feel better at 290 (my all-time highest) versus my now weight of 190's is beyond me! So, fellow stitchers, bear with me to the bear end and bear-l around and see me sometime (yep...my stitching may slack, but my Disney never does).
Yep, I'm still here. This is the first time I've touched any blog in months. My focus has been in the "me" world. I have a new therapist and it's still early days, but I'm doing much better both mentally and physically. Work always sucks, so that's already a dead horse. And both pups are still hangin in there. My last post was probably the last time I stitched or at least my last Instragram post was. Maleficent still isn't framed, she's still in her ziploc baggie on the kitchen table. Bad me all around. I'm getting worse at this whole social media thing, what little I do. My job is tech burnout, so by the time I get home, the only tech I touch is my TV. The thought of creating a blog post or human communication in any way is just too much. I do have two vacations coming up, so that's exciting, right? I haven't felt like sharing, so very few people around me know about these. The first is a birthday trip to Boulder, j...
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