Tuesday, August 16, 2016


Things are FINALLY getting better, at least somewhat. Work is suckier than ever and my attention span is still that of a fly, but at least I feel better. The meds seem to be working even though people keep telling me that I'm speaking like a rabbit on speed...my brain works faster than my mouth, so I speak fast to keep up and I always have, so I'm not sure what the difference is. I guess because I don't do it depressively anymore, I'm a perky rabbit now and that's weird to everyone.

They put me on something called Trentillex which has about a million side effects but I only seem to have one...constant itching. When I go back to the shrink at the end of the month, I'm pretty sure she's gonna up the dose, so I'm not sure how much worse the itching will get. I'm already covered in sores from scratching and no amount of baby oil baths or Benadryl seems to be helping. I'm still not entirely sure that it's the right drug because it only seems to be helping the depression and not the ADD or OCD.

On the therapy front, I still think it is incredibly stupid and I'm fighting her all the way (but that's just what I do). She seriously wants me to buy something called Crazy Aaron's Thinking Putty and play with it constantly because it will "calm my mind". Ain't gonna happen and not just because it's expensive, but because it's the stupidest idea I've ever heard of. I'm also supposed to learn to use a "new" word and mean it...NO. Yeah, that's probably not going to happen either. I'm not built that way. Seriously, therapy is SO stupid! How in the world do people go constantly and benefit from it?

I haven't started stitching again (and probably won't until Disney is over with), but I have started working on a new diamond painting/cross stitch, so at least my hands are busy when I'm at home. I've also been watching all the seasons of Once Upon A Time again and, for some weird reason, that seems to be helping too. Probably because it's such a hope-pushing show. I'm trying to keep up with Disney planning, but I'm also doing a horrible job with that as well. I seriously can't focus on anything for longer than 30 minutes at a time, which, most of the time, functions well at work, but not so much for everything else.

I'm going to try to start reading blogs again, maybe by the weekend. I miss seeing everyone else's stitching progress even if I don't feel like doing it myself...at least not yet. I've also just taken my last April A to Z cross stitch project to Hobby Lobby for framing and, once I decide where I'm going to put them all, I'll post a picture of all of them hanging together (or at least that's the plan...I'm not good with follow-through right now).

But anyway, I'm already getting bored, but I thought I'd better update a bit so that you guys that are worried about me can hopefully feel better. I've really got to break down and respond to emails too, but I've got to go do something else for a while.


Tiffstitch said...

Good to hear from you and know some things are better. Still keeping fingers crossed for you that things will somehow improve.

Linda said...

Glad to hear that your feeling somewhat better Keiley. Take your time, things will work out for you.


Bea said...

I was relieved to see your post. Glad there is a little improvement, although not enough for you.

Caitlin @ Naughts Cross Stitches said...

I'm glad that things are looking up. Medicines are hard to handle. They aren't as easy as a yes and no.

Vickie said...

I am so sorry you are going through all this. It may sound weird but have you looked into some essential oils to help calm you? I usually have some diffusing in my class and that seems to help.

Mii Stitch said...

Glad things seem to be moving in the right direction albeit slowly.
Therapy sounds a bit wacky, don't blame you for not believing in it!

Heather said...

Well I'm glad things are moving but I hope they give you a better medicine. I'm the same way with talking lol I just want to say everything at once. I'm sure you'll have fun on your trip!

Justine said...

Nice to hear from you and I hope that things continue to improve. I'm intrigued to know what's so special about Crazy Aaron's putty. Wouldn't kids' plasticine just do the same thing? I'm off to Google it anyway.