Things are FINALLY getting better, at least somewhat. Work is suckier than ever and my attention span is still that of a fly, but at least I feel better. The meds seem to be working even though people keep telling me that I'm speaking like a rabbit on speed...my brain works faster than my mouth, so I speak fast to keep up and I always have, so I'm not sure what the difference is. I guess because I don't do it depressively anymore, I'm a perky rabbit now and that's weird to everyone.
They put me on something called Trentillex which has about a million side effects but I only seem to have one...constant itching. When I go back to the shrink at the end of the month, I'm pretty sure she's gonna up the dose, so I'm not sure how much worse the itching will get. I'm already covered in sores from scratching and no amount of baby oil baths or Benadryl seems to be helping. I'm still not entirely sure that it's the right drug because it only seems to be helping the depression and not the ADD or OCD.
On the therapy front, I still think it is incredibly stupid and I'm fighting her all the way (but that's just what I do). She seriously wants me to buy something called Crazy Aaron's Thinking Putty and play with it constantly because it will "calm my mind". Ain't gonna happen and not just because it's expensive, but because it's the stupidest idea I've ever heard of. I'm also supposed to learn to use a "new" word and mean it...NO. Yeah, that's probably not going to happen either. I'm not built that way. Seriously, therapy is SO stupid! How in the world do people go constantly and benefit from it?
I haven't started stitching again (and probably won't until Disney is over with), but I have started working on a new diamond painting/cross stitch, so at least my hands are busy when I'm at home. I've also been watching all the seasons of Once Upon A Time again and, for some weird reason, that seems to be helping too. Probably because it's such a hope-pushing show. I'm trying to keep up with Disney planning, but I'm also doing a horrible job with that as well. I seriously can't focus on anything for longer than 30 minutes at a time, which, most of the time, functions well at work, but not so much for everything else.
I'm going to try to start reading blogs again, maybe by the weekend. I miss seeing everyone else's stitching progress even if I don't feel like doing it myself...at least not yet. I've also just taken my last April A to Z cross stitch project to Hobby Lobby for framing and, once I decide where I'm going to put them all, I'll post a picture of all of them hanging together (or at least that's the plan...I'm not good with follow-through right now).
But anyway, I'm already getting bored, but I thought I'd better update a bit so that you guys that are worried about me can hopefully feel better. I've really got to break down and respond to emails too, but I've got to go do something else for a while.